January 29, 2012

Are you afraid of the dark? Because I am.

I am sort of a scaredy cat. Not so much during the day, but the second my head hits the pillow at night I immediately begin to think of the absolute worst thing that can happen to me and my family. Normally once Mark comes to bed, I am over it. And yes, we normally go to bed at different times. I like to be in bed earlier than most grandparents…I am talking 9:00 or 9:30 and Mark likes to wait until 10:00 or later.

Well this weekend Mark was out of town which sort of presented a problem.  I realized shortly after he left that I have NEVER stayed at home by myself.  Mark has only gone out of town a few times and I always go to my parents’ house.  So needless to say, Saturday night was a little rough.

I have decided that I am a scaredy cat for the following reasons:
  1. I am a sissy
  2. I like to watch crime shows even though I know I will pay for it later. They are like train wrecks to me. I  know I shouldn't watch them, but I can’t seem to turn the channel. I convince myself that it would be worse to turn it off than to not finish it. 
  3. Recently, someone randomly rang our doorbell at 12:15am and then walked away…freaky. 
  4. Did I mention that I am a sissy? Because I am.
It just so happens that we talked about fear today at church. It was said that when we fear earthly things, the focus is on us, not Christ. There were other convicting things said that I wish I could remember, but I can't because my brain is shut off for the day (It is already 8:00 in the pm you know).
I would love to say that after hearing this, I am good to go. But like all of us, I am a work in progress.  It was a great reminder that I need to be more focused on Christ…and I should probably stop watching crime shows :)


kcochrane said...

I am exactly like you in this. I struggle with turning it over to God too. I constantly watch crime shows on A&E... I can't get enough of them. Call me next time you're alone and we'll have a sleep over:)

The Rohman Family said...

Put me in the sissy column. And the grandparent column, as my bedtime is typically 8:30. But I had to give up the crime shows. It did help some. Still, it's about 3am when I have those awful thoughts. Takes me forever to go back to sleep!

NosyRosie said...

I am the same way! I stay at my parents too when Andy's out of town. That hour drive to work the next day is totally worth it! I'm glad to know I'm not alone. Never I repeat NEVER watch the original "when a stranger calls". You may never sleep again!

Lindsey said...

I am glad to know I am not alone here :)